Inspiration is Everywhere

For the past two years, my tita Jamice has been battling ALS - a condition of the nervous system that causes muscle weakness and impacts physical function. It’s terminal and life expectancy is 2-5 years. Since her diagnosis, my tita has lost her ability to walk, her speech is very slow, her breathing is labored and her quality of life has shifted drastically. And yet through it all, she shines brighter than her favorite tie dye outfits. She shines every damn day.

I cannot tell you how many times I’ve physically felt my grief reach into my heart and squeeze tight. Or moments where everything goes cloudy and although I’m not tired, I can barely keep my eyes open. I am grieving the only person I consider a second mother. She is part of my soul in such a deeply spiritual way.

Last night I had a dream that I was visiting with my family and my tita got up on her own to go to the bathroom. All of the sudden she could walk again! I felt both hopeful and foolish. In my dream, the physical therapy had helped her gain her muscle function back, she was stable, almost healed, and free. Nunchuck (my dog) woke me up howling for breakfast and potties. I woke up fucked up and confused with so many circling thoughts:

Can my tita really be healed?

Movement is magic.

Is my optimism for her getting better not as naive as I think it is?

What is she trying to tell me by coming into my dreams the way she does (several times a week)?

My point isn’t to tell you a sob story and leave you without hope. What I want to share is that my tita’s journey with ALS has caused my life to slow down. It’s created more intention. I’ve taken a short break from my schooling to focus on my business, my family and my health. It’s inspired me in ways I didn’t know I needed, and I know this feeling all too well. After my mom’s passing in 2010, I quickly learned that through grief, comes massive inspiration.

Through grief, comes massive inspiration. It’s fucking beautiful.

So if you’re experiencing grief of a person or perhaps that of a previous version of yourself or a previous life, release the fear. It’s going to be okay. Inspiration is there, it’s absolutely everywhere. We are allowed to navigate sadness and heartache while summoning the very fire and passion required to nourish our bodies, our souls and our dream life.

Part of that inspiration went into finally launching this website. I’ve been working on it for over a year and with divine timing, I put out a website that I actually feel speaks my truth and represents me. It’s provided a platform to be in service to my clients and community in ways I’ve been yearning for for a long time. Grief helped me find my power and get upset and feel anger in my bones so deep that the only way I could shake it off was to take action. To cultivate a life I want. At one point or another, you have to realize that abundance comes from within. You are the source energy that you deserve and your capabilities are endless.

My mothers life and death continues to inspire me to offer my skills to the world and make a difference through movement. My second mother, my tita, has continued to do the same. Her life, her condition and whatever comes next for her, will only serve to inspire me to be even greater.

Thank you for sharing these very intimate moments and continuing on this journey with me. Welcome to movetoliv.com.